Into the Looking Glass...and Back Out
Who am I?
Masks of Many Purposes
We are all a complex combination of what we conceal and reveal.
At several stages of my life - possibly without realizing it consciously - I armed or literally "armored" myself with what I refer to now as my "body mask." When I wanted to be unapproachable, I consciously or unconsciously put on weight. Interestingly, it had the same effect as a shield. I became invisible to many, repulsive to others. And to a rare few, I continued to be ME. In such times, we learn what we and others are truly made of...who is more substance-focused and who is more interested in the surface and more superficial things.
Sometimes, I would compose poems or write and sketch in a journal to express my feelings and experiences during trying times. The following reflection is from a time when I realized that to some people, I was unimportant. A student of human dynamics, I found it fascinating that because I was overweight, I was invisible. Not only that, but apparently my "chubby" voice could not be heard in a meeting, either. Like I said...fascinating! The realization of the relativity of existence was rather illuminating. I soon realized that such superficial individuals did not matter to me, either, and that being invisible actually had side-benefits in some situations! I opted to think of it as a 'superpower.' (Face it, we all want a superpower...and the Marvel or DC heroes could not choose their superpower, either!)
if we could see a composite of what the world sees?
Who am I? Who are we, really...?
While we might not have different personalities, we definitely have multiple personas - each persona is tied to the roles we play. For me: Mom, sister, friend, colleague, artist, writer... In each of the different roles, we might act or speak or dress differently. Our personas are the many facets of our lives.
My legacy, like yours, began with my first reflection in a mirror.
From there, I hope that it has taken flight, never again confined!
I hope you will visit my solo exhibition and collaboration events in Annapolis. The link to the information follows:
Thank you for reading, and thanks, as always, for your support.
Yours in art and gratitude,